Did I Speak Too Soon?

Did I speak too soon? Yes, why yes I did. Go figure. Here I was feeling great, and happy at that. No time for this cancer chemo side effects bullshit. And it was a Thursday when I posted my last update. By that time I would have normally experienced my side effects, but this past week was different.

What I experienced this week was not only later than usual, but it just sucked. It was late on Thursday, then all day Friday, and into Saturday. What a shit show. Thankfully I think all that is behind me, just in time to get another round of chemo tomorrow. This coming week shouldn't be as bad.

You know it's interesting what these drugs do and don't do to you in a way. Internally they are designed to stop your cancer from growing and shrink it which in itself is amazing if you really think about it. Externally is no big deal to me, the obvious and most noticeably being that I lost my hair. Did I also mention I am continuously gaining weight? They are happy with that too. My care team that is. They want you to gain weight. I guess in part that tells them my body is responding well. And then there's the mental part of it, which again, for me, this is just another thing I have to go through in my life. I don't see it as a big deal, and I am fighting. 

Why did I say I spoke too soon and what happened this past week after Thursday afternoon that it made me want to tell you about it? Jesus, let's go. First and foremost, I don't think I have ever slept so much in one week as I have this past week. 12-14 hours of sleep per night for the most part, then sometimes followed by naps. Like christ with the naps. I swear to fuck I slept more than a fucking new born baby. You would think after all that sleep, I would have energy, want to do things, and would get shit done, like basic housework. Nope, didn't fucking happen. Everything was just at a higher degree of difficulty for me regardless. Either way, clearly my body is telling me this is what I need, so that's what I did was listen. I slept a lot. 

What else? So as I described a few weeks ago, I had these shooting or shocking type of pains, especially in my inner knee area. Although I mostly felt these in my lower body, below the waist, including my legs and feet, I would occasionally get them in my hands too. I don't know if those shocking type of pains (thinking this is a form of neuropathy), build up or linger or what, but it makes your muscles where you get them, somewhat sore. Not like you overworked them, but it weakens them for sure. For instance, with my hands, I would be careful picking up something I normally wouldn't because my hand muscles don't seem as strong. I walk slower during this time too. Still, could be worse. What sucks is although brief, it is unpleasant. And I can tell you it'll either cause you to not be able to fall asleep, or the pains will wake you from your sleep. I guess for me it doesn't matter because I'll get my 20 hours in.

Anything else? Why yes. I'm glad inquiring minds want to know. I only lost my taste buds for one day. I'm used to that. No biggie. You want to talk about this wreaking havoc on your system. Yes, I also dealt with that. Thankfully no throwing up, but I will say this. You better be close to a restroom, ALWAYS. No fart is safe. Just remember that. What I find interesting about this ordeal is I am no longer feeling bloated (WIN), nothing is bothering me food wise, I haven't had indigestion or acid reflux since I started taking that medication again, yet my stomach is apparently having a fucking boxing match, UFC style. Bullshit. But again, could be worse, right? Don't fart, don't squat, and perhaps if I don't bend over, all remains in tact. So far so good 😙