What's New In This New Year?

What's new? And what's not? Oh so much!

Chemo is still going, which is great. White blood cells are really good, and way sooner than anticipated, so even better. Physical therapy is still a thing, and that is going so so so well! I am really on the mend. My hair is still growing, and like a weed I may add. It's now 2" long! Wow! It's fucking out of control actually. It just does what it wants when it wants, and I just go with it. Why fight it? Lol. I don't care. Some days it's so comical, and I don't care what anyone thinks.

What else? As if I don't have enough shit to deal with just with treatment alone, because that in itself is just a beast, I got laid off from work last week. Like fucking great. I was back for three weeks only for them to say Bye Felicia. WTF? So I can handle this one of two ways. Dwell on it and let it drag me down (which by now you all know that is NEVER going to happen), or look at it that it's for the best, and this allows me now not to be stressed with work on top of everything else, and just focus on myself and my treatment. Getting stronger and preparing for what's ahead. I'll take the latter. 

Anything else you wonder? Hmmm, yes. This neuropathy thing is getting fucking ridiculous. Like seriously ridiculous. My right hand only still, which is my dominant hand, has it all going on. Pinky, nothing, no neuropathy, however, the rest of my fingers, including my thumb, has gotten worse. Jesus. I spoke with my oncologist about it because I thought it had everything to do with my chemo treatments. Nope, I was wrong. He said the chemo meds I am on do not cause neuropathy. Surprise. Wow. I was not expecting to hear that. He suggested I see a hand doctor, and so I will be doing that. Tomorrow actually. Let's see what they have to say. It's suspected that it could be carpel tunnel, but I am not gong to sit here and play this guessing game. I will leave it to the experts.

Has 2023 started off with a bang? Yes, kind of, and not in all the banging kind of ways I wish it was, but, it is what it is. I know I could have it better as some do, but in reality, I know I could have it so much worse than I do, as others do. I am grateful for what I have, and as much as I have a can do attitude and I am going to kick cancer's ass attitude, I know I am lucky, and therefore I am thankful.