Fuck. This. Week.

 Seriously, fuck this week. This has been by far the hardest week I have had yet since I started chemo. 

I napped every day this week. Every. Fucking. Day. I cannot believe I am so tired every day. My energy level is so low and I basically do nothing all damn day. It’s almost like what the fuck is the point of getting out of bed to essentially do nothing? Seems unnecessary.

Aside from having no energy and being tired with zero the little motivation, yesterday I was so sick. Sicker than I have been since all this started. I was a hot fucking mess and then some. I even vomited. That’s a first. And upon vomiting, not that I want to talk about it in great detail, but I noticed that dinner I had eaten approximately 18 hours prior, was still undigested. Well that isn’t Normal. Fuck me. Let me just add this shit to the list of what’s going on.

I am in some groups on FB about cancer, and breast cancer specifically. I decided to post in there about what I am experiencing and ask if anyone else has the same. I received many responses, and I think much to my surprise, yes, many other women are having the same side effects. I also asked about the longer you get into treatment, if your side effects get worse. Yep. That is the definitive answer. That explains a lot. 

I only have 4 more Taxol treatments left, then on to the next round of meds on AC a.k.a. Red Devil. No telling what that’s going to bring, let’s just hope I can get through these last 4 Taxol treatments without shit getting worse in the meantime.