Update time, again, and so soon already?!? Maybe it's been longer than I think. Time always seems to get away from me. So many fucking appointments, jesus, I feel like I need a god damn personal assistant to keep my shit straight and go run my bullshit errands.
PT has resumed. Ouch. I wasn't at PT for 2 weeks due to the great Texas storm of 2023. Fucking ice storms. What an inconvenience, because you cannot drive in that shit. Was the break nice? Of course, not having to drive there several times a week was a nice change of pace. But the way my body feels, and felt once I resumed this past week, holy shit. I have never told my physical therapist flat out that I couldn't do something. I will always give it a good college try. This week, I almost muttered those words. I pushed through and did the best I could, but my body definitely recognized the break. I only have 2 weeks of PT left, and then my insurance benefit is exhausted. I hope I am ready in all the facets, and we shall see. I cannot continue going without insurance. I just got my EOB's since I started PT; they bill $500 per visit for just PT. If there is an evaluation, it's about $1,200 per visit. Nope. Not doing it. With YouTube and all that great shit these days, plus the home exercises I have, I will figure shit out.
My neck, my back (are you singing the song?). No. My fucking arm. I think I have figured out (finally), why my upper right arm has been bothering me. For a long time it's baffled me, then bam! It hit me, just like that. I am certain it is the way I am sleeping on it. Given that I have been a stomach sleeper my entire life, then I couldn't when I had my double mastectomy, and now I am back to it, but it is not the same. I just can't sleep in the same position like I used to. And sleeping the way I do is fucking up my arm. I need to figure out how to counteract that.
Orthopedic doc said what?!? So the last time I updated this, I was just getting ready to go to the orthopedic doc. For now, I am being treated for tendonitis. I have this ridiculous brace (almost like an air cast) that I have to wear as many hours a day as possible. It keeps my wrist stable as well as my thumb. I can't do anything when I wear it, hence the annoyance. Despite that, it has been helping along with the antiinflammatory they prescribed. I go for a follow up in about 10 days or so, so let's see what they have to say then.
Fucking Medical Bills. I am sick of these god damn things. Seriously. Tired of them, but they keep coming. And they will continue to come. I received a $700 bill the other day, knowing I have another $2K bill coming on top of that. Fuck me. FML right now.
Colonoscopy results are in! I received my pathology report. One polyp identified and removed; it is precancerous, but benign. Perfect. Because I am not all about any more cancer bullshit. I don't have the time nor the energy to go through cancer treatments anymore. Hell I haven't even finished breast cancer treatments yet. Get your shit (no pun intended) checked. Mammograms, physicals, colonoscopies, pap smears. Whatever the fuck it is you are supposed to do, just do it. Don't put it off. It could literally save your life. I am living proof of that.
WTF is with adulting anyways? I am over this shit. I remember when I was a kid, I couldn't wait to grow up, be an adult, not have the same bullshit rules I had when I was growing up, having the freedom to do what I want, when I want. Ya, that shit is overrated. Seriously overrated. I have done so much fucking adulting lately. I need a break. I think I would lose my god damn mind if I was working too, this shit is just too much some days.
I'm breaking out like a teenager as if I use butter as moisturizer on my face. What?!? I am 45 years old. Should I have a dozen pimples on my face? Fuck no, but I do. I have no period, and haven't in over three years due to my partial hysterectomy, so I have no clue whats causing them all of the sudden. Christ. I don't ever wear makeup, so that's not the cause. Maybe there's bacon grease mixed in with my moisturizer? Ha. No, there isn't, but my face is telling another story right now. I need to get this shit under control!
Finally, to wrap this up. I am having fun with my hair! It is maybe 2.5" long, so there isn't much length wise. Enough to cover my head for sure, and it's growing in so thick, but I just discovered the other day that it's long enough for a flat iron! Wow. I was surprised. Pleasantly surprised. So here are some pics of my hair from this week. Check out the curls. I am so over them.......
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